A beautiful Saturday Date with my lovely boy today turns out to be a nightmare tonight.

I've got a thousands of photos and happy times i wanna blog about, but my face is currently like this

---> :'( so this isn't the best time to talk about,

because im probably caught in one of the worse situation on Earth, tore between kinship and relationship. 

.. 

I've always highly regarded kinship and i believe many of you do because our parents are the ones who raised us up from a small baby to a teen and finally to an adult.

And no doubt, i think i have the greatest parents on Earth, because they lavish me with love,care and concern.

..

And i didn't know the essences of what relationships can provided till about a year ago when i met my first boyfriend, and he turned out to be both a cause of most of my troubles and also a source of some of my happiness. But still, i would name him as a gift from heaven. 

.. 

2011 had already proven itself to be a pretty tough year for the first year of our relationship due to our differing personalities as well as my parents' objections of his diet as a vegetarian. ):

But still, we managed to prove it through.

2012 was an even tougher year, because he was in the army, and i had my major A'level examinations to deal with. Along this year,we argue a lot more than usual couples,we went through ups and downs, happiness and sorrows, bitter and sweet to reach today, where he received his red beret and i completed my examinations.

..

But my parents' objections never stopped. maybe it did for a period of time because hes a really sweet boyfriend, but this deep rooted problem never really got out of their mind.

and this exploding bubble burst today as a major outbreak occured in both of my parents as my dad smashed my cellphone on the floor, and my mum burst into tears and i simply, collapsed.

.. 

And my boy wanted reassurance that i would never subdue to such strong and violet objections,and that our true love would gain recognition in the future. 

But as an ordinary girl, caught between relationship and kinship , the few most importance aspect of life, how am i to make such a decision which will be a major turning point in my life?

..

i wished i wasnt the one caught in the middle because my courage, determination and perseverance to hold both together is drained and drying up. 

i dont expect everything to be fine, but i hope that everyone i love will stay happy.  

i would love to use both parties' love and dote on me to get this matter resolve, but my umpteen attempts have proven to be unsuccessful and everything seems bleak. 

i need that courage to touch both parties again.

A beautiful Saturday Date with my lovely boy today turns out to be a nightmare tonight.

I've got a thousands of photos and happy times i wanna blog about, but my face is currently like this

---> :'( so this isn't the best time to talk about,

because im probably caught in one of the worse situation on Earth, tore between kinship and relationship. 

.. 

I've always highly regarded kinship and i believe many of you do because our parents are the ones who raised us up from a small baby to a teen and finally to an adult.

And no doubt, i think i have the greatest parents on Earth, because they lavish me with love,care and concern.

..

And i didn't know the essences of what relationships can provided till about a year ago when i met my first boyfriend, and he turned out to be both a cause of most of my troubles and also a source of some of my happiness. But still, i would name him as a gift from heaven. 

.. 

2011 had already proven itself to be a pretty tough year for the first year of our relationship due to our differing personalities as well as my parents' objections of his diet as a vegetarian. ):

But still, we managed to prove it through.

2012 was an even tougher year, because he was in the army, and i had my major A'level examinations to deal with. Along this year,we argue a lot more than usual couples,we went through ups and downs, happiness and sorrows, bitter and sweet to reach today, where he received his red beret and i completed my examinations.

..

But my parents' objections never stopped. maybe it did for a period of time because hes a really sweet boyfriend, but this deep rooted problem never really got out of their mind.

and this exploding bubble burst today as a major outbreak occured in both of my parents as my dad smashed my cellphone on the floor, and my mum burst into tears and i simply, collapsed.

.. 

And my boy wanted reassurance that i would never subdue to such strong and violet objections,and that our true love would gain recognition in the future. 

But as an ordinary girl, caught between relationship and kinship , the few most importance aspect of life, how am i to make such a decision which will be a major turning point in my life?

..

i wished i wasnt the one caught in the middle because my courage, determination and perseverance to hold both together is drained and drying up. 

i dont expect everything to be fine, but i hope that everyone i love will stay happy.  

i would love to use both parties' love and dote on me to get this matter resolve, but my umpteen attempts have proven to be unsuccessful and everything seems bleak. 

i need that courage to touch both parties again.